Life is no fun and games when you are in love, especially when there are two people you are thinking of. This forbidden love seemed doomed before it started, what was once just half friendship, ended up becoming whole hearted love. Now I try to make sense of this unique situation, through all that we been, I just can’t accept that parting can be our destination.
 Through all my troubled times you gave me strength, a reason to hope, taught me to love myself….making me a changed person…a woman.Time and again, I want to move out, knowing that we probably don’t have a future. Being the other woman,makes me feel insecure. At times I want to be selfish, and want more of what we have, but hold back, still believing that we may have something to look forward to….and to tell you the truth, every time I hear your voice, I just can’t think of living without you.
Sometimes this loneliness kills me, I don’t want to keep waiting all my life… |
That's real to me, you give me an option and do not press the issue, what is a woman to do when she doesn't want to leave but does not want to dismiss you? If loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right…And if I have to sleep without you, I don't want to sleep another lonely night…This feeling of pain from being wrong and doing wrong is not doing me any good. I feel miserable, incomplete and mad at myself and no one else to blame. ..Making me think that maybe I should do the honorable thing, leave you and just be by myself. But I love you so much, I have given you my all....and I don't want to be alone.
And if loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right for the rest of my life….and if loving you is wrong, I want to be wrong for the rest of my life…and if loving you is going to bring me pain and loneliness, then let me suffer for the happiness it brings…I will wait for our future, even if means forever, even if that future may never come, now or ever…. So if loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right. I don't need to be perfect in everyone's sight. I don't need to follow the rules of righteousness, I'd rather be wrong with my love and happiness.
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as usual very touching you make us all want to hug you and keep you safe...
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I agree with Jim...it's realy very touching and we all are here to hug you and keep you safe always.There is nothing wrong in loving and wanting.Life's second name is Love..so you are always right.Believe me :D
ReplyDelete@ABHISEK:...Thank you Abhi,I am happy that I have so many people to take care of me.
ReplyDelete@Jim...Thanks a lot..I am touched.
I am so proud of you...a great post..and you are not wrong.
ReplyDeleteI am so proud of you...a great post..and you are not wrong.
ReplyDeleteWhat can I say Alpana... you know exactly how I feel about this. When everything seems and feels so right... how can it go wrong? I never understood it. But you ended with a beautiful verse.
ReplyDeleteSo ready to lose everything to win this one thing called 'love'...
Thank you my friend!!
If you are destined to be with him you will darling - till such time just enjoy what you have with him - even the journey, if there is one. So what if it is one of anticipation. : ) Sorry too much said without thinking ... lotsa love
ReplyDeleteI love your post and the questions you asked. Love is never wrong and loving someone with all you have is the most right thing in the world. If it's meant to be, it will happen.Trust the Universe to bring you all you need.
ReplyDeleteSo beautifully expressed.....touched my heart.
ReplyDeleteamazingly beautiful...I feel like holding on to you...never letting you go...
ReplyDeletevery nice alpana , "love i a beautiful feeling".
ReplyDeletevery nice alpana, "love is a beautiful feeling".
ReplyDeleteThere is nothing right or wrong in love...and with someone with your heart..everything is right.
ReplyDeleteNo rules in love Alpu....you're a brave girl, we all know that!! Loved reading this...
ReplyDelete@Anandita...Thanks a lot..
ReplyDelete@Sheba...I wanted you to read this,because you are one person,who knows whats going on with me...right or wrong...I still don't know,as you also don't know...are we ever going to get what we want??
@Kriti...You know where I am coming from...I hope your wishes for me come true..thanks a lot.
@Sulekha...Thank you,and I too have left it up to destiny..
ReplyDelete@Eva....Thank you,sweet Eva.
@Rahul...Thanks a lot..and you are my friend...and when needed,I will reach out to you.
@Sarda...Thank u..and yes,LOVE is beautiful.
ReplyDelete@Bobby...I convince myself by saying that there is no right or wrong...but,do get scared.
@Swati...I know you understand me..and thank you.
@Sarda...Thank u..and yes,LOVE is beautiful.
ReplyDelete@Bobby...I convince myself by saying that there is no right or wrong...but,do get scared.
@Swati...I know you understand me..and thank you.
Good one..Mausi.
ReplyDeleteBe strong darling. Love can never be wrong. And we dont choose who we love, it just happens. Have the faith. As Paulo Coelho says that if we want something truly then the entire universe conspires to make it happen.It will happen.
ReplyDeleteeverytime we fall in love our existence gets a reson to live. its a wonderful feeling. loved to see the love in you. it can never be wrong. love is wonderful. love is powerful. each of your writing proves it each time you pen down your thoughts. keep similing:)
ReplyDeletetouching story
ReplyDelete@Rimly...Thank you,I know you understand me,you know how I feel,and what I am going through,wrote this without thinking..was hurting a lot...Rimly...what more???
ReplyDelete@Sancheeta..Yes,love is a wonderful feeling...and thank you so much for appreciating my work.
ReplyDeletealpana, there are no rules for the heart... everything seems right... and yet i ask why do we experience pain and hurt when we love?
ReplyDelete"i just can't think of living without you..."
i thought so too but eventually i did... my strength doesn't come from the people outside me... my life source is within me...
our heart will really be restless until it rests on the one who truly loves and cares about us...
i love you alpana and i always wish you the best :)
No Alpana! Whether you think it's love or not you are doing yourself harm. I was that man in my past. He will never feel the same as you, no matter what words emanate from his mouth. He will be happy to have his cake and eat it too.
ReplyDeleteI am not saying to love is wrong yet sometimes we love the wrong ones.
Enjoy and savour but move on..
Cheers A
@Melissa...thanks a lot...I love you..and I wish we could have been nearer to each other,there is so much to be said...but I am glad that you understand me...
ReplyDelete@AG...Today I have realized what friendship is all about...time and again I question myself...wish for the will to move on...and will have to do so,eventually...Thank you so much...I will always keep you in mind.
Nice reading A's advice btw... But maybe from the man's point of view, he's right or maybe we should really care about what he said... hehe
ReplyDeleteGreat post Alpana for those helplessly in love and having difficulty to move on... I do hope you'll find a way to carry on with your life without that man though... It's hard but you got to fight it! ;)
@Jorie..Thanks a lot..I am trying to..and I hopefully someday realize that I don't need a man in my life to be happy.
ReplyDeleteI am awestruck... its not only the voice,when ever I see the person.. I get back to the days,to all my ignorant loving days.. days where I was a mortal tool to achieve something better... I wish to hate, But it doesnt happen.. "If loving you is wrong, I don't want to be right…And if I have to sleep without you, I don't want to sleep another lonely night…"....and i wanna write on this same topic!
ReplyDeleteThank u,Anirban..I am happy that you can relate to this...
ReplyDeleteYou rocked me off my feet..such a powerful and intense post...keep going,you are amazing.
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